Hello I am moco, I am 44. I happened to hear of BDSM just late in November 2008, I had never thought of it as real, just some pretend stuff for porn. I didn't even know what it was. I have lived a very sheltered life, I am very shy (but can have a different attitude and presentation when in chat) and sometimes have a hard time expressing myself. I still don't know a lot of what some kids do, my friends tell me to look things up on urban dictionary, I go there a lot, it seems I do not know very much at all.-blushes- I went to an adult book store about two months ago and bought my first toy (it was more like an assignment from a friend of mine who thinks I am repressed, he was surprised when I told him about a BDSM chat that I joined. He thinks it's a good thing and I might just "blossom" out of my cocoon. Just coming to this site was a very giant leap for me. I am looking forward to getting to know my way around, and I am hoping to get to know all of you too. I am interested in both sides of the BDSM culture, Dominate and submissive, I don't know much right now, just some of the terminology, but looking forward to learning more. So that is pretty much it I guess.