A fallen sub,
that had nothing left,
torn,
hurt,
broken.

Why you may ask,
but does it matter,
scared,
lifeless,
emotional.

Totally fearing,
to trust again.
shaken,
insecure,
untouchable.

So wanting to be,
what she was.
despair,
need,
desperation.

Grasping at straws,
that only broke.
heart ache,
pain,
suffering.

And she finally,
hid away.
loneliness,
confinement,
anguish.

Til one day,
she peeked out,
curious,
wonder,
nervous.

She decided,
it was time.
longing,
wanting,
needing.

Her pain,
had finally subsided.
breathing,
relaxed,
content.

And has once more,
returned home.
happy,
smiling,
willing.

It has been near 2 two years since i have actually felt ok with myself enough to once more return to this site. i have tried a few times but faltered, but now i feel ready to once more return. i am very hopeful one day i shall find another o/l Sir, but until then i am glad to be back with my friends.

Of course i am still with The Tester, He is my r/l Master, and i still love him with all my heart.

hugs
snow