I knew that you were a part of me
but I never understood the depth of it
until you were not there and I had no idea
where or if you would return to me.
It was as if a piece of my soul had been ripped away.
I felt hollow, empty and the memory of you
echoed through me like sounds in an abandoned building.
I could not make the emptiness go away.
Fear overtook me as I faced a future without you in it.
I was paralyzed at the thought of having to continue
to live a life now devoid of purpose or love.
There seemed no further purpose in it.
Worry gnawed at me like a hungry wolf in winter.
It ate at me from the inside out as I anguished
that I somehow had caused you to leave.
And my soul became as cold as winter.
The only solace that I find
is in the hope that you will return
and bring back to me the joy of life.
This is the peace I try to find.