I joined this forum two weeks ago, and already I find positive changes in myself that I would like to share.

I always had BDSM tendencies, but I've kept them a secret from my family and friends. Several times, I tried to draw my wife into it, but nothing doing. We enjoy sex but she does not believe in variety. So I found other outlets: casual encounters, on-line and solo play.

I enjoy the sub games, and the erotic pleasure is even more intense when I know that I doing it for someone. Well, I decided that I should submit to my wife, even if she doesn't know it.

For example, a day doesn't go by that I masturbate with my toys at least once: in the shower, at work, even in the car. But I don't come. I save it for her. The slightest hint of sex and I drop everything. And menial tasks that would put me off, now I do with pleasure.

My fantasy is for my wife to be my Mistress. Can anyone relate to this and how did you go about it?