Up until I was 17 sex was always just bland and not appealing at all, though sex rarely crossed my mind anyway as I was usually fantasiesing (mind my grammar) about how I would love to rape and torture all the girls.
Shortly after my 17th birthday I met a sub girl who asked me if I would beat her and once to even kill her. Though close to what I wanted I couldn't bring myself to do anything because well she wanted it.. so I lost interest in women and tried men where I met a pig bottom who wad quite the slave. Though experienced as a sub bottom I do not think he was ready for my calibur of master.. and for my first time I was extremely proud of myself for hurting him in ways he did not expect.

When he finally escaped my grasp I took my chances to find a dom as mean and messed up as I am but failed for 2 months which saddened me I could not find my equivalence here. And now I'm not even interested in rape or sexuality.. just torture.