Well BBW, from my position on the subs bench, you have just made me smile. Having read this thread earlier today I had been musing about your position and determined to add my penny's worth, I have returned to find you have found your own solution. Congratulations.

Congratulations not only for having the strength to confront the situation, putting your own needs into proper perspective, but also for handling it in such a way that you still have a good relationship with your former Master.

I emphasise with the hurt and sense of loss you are feeling and send a big sisterly subby hug to you.

I would urge you to wait until this phase of painful emptiness is over before you consider stepping into another relationship again, because sensible as you sound, I would fear your judgment could be impaired. And good for you not wanting to jump head first into play with a new Master - sounds like you intuitively know at least part of the BDSM first aid book! Quite apart from physical safety you have just found out how emotionally painful a 'not quite right' D/s relationship can be, and getting to know someone outside of the play arena is a great basis for building something even better.

Whilst in chat I have heard other people ask the same question as you; i.e. where can I meet someone. The answer given is the 'collarme' site - but I hasten to add that this is not a recommendation - I know nothing about the place - but when you are ready there can be no harm in engaging all your brain cells and emotional intelligence and peeping in.

I wish you a gentle and complete recovery in your present time of healing, and a future successful and mutually fulfilling relationship.

caraid