i suggest a journal.. seriously.. after a heavy encounter, you could fill out an entry regarding your feelings about the goings on without feeling too shy because you are writing them and have the ability to erase and make it sound exactly as you want it to..
also, in the journal, you can detail lavish fantasies of yours without feeling too shy.. i find that it is much easier to write about these things.. i find it is easier to open up when i am writing them down, even though i know that He is eventually going to read them.. and i do get super shy when He picks up the journal! but at least He knows what is going on..
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