angelic.zest

Firstly i have to say no names will be giving about the person i am about to talk about. nor will i make in references about who he is or what his name might be Lol......thats my disclaimer....

all persons mentioned here might or might not be part of this community, so dont guess!~

Well, i was talking with this guy while i was with someone(just talk no play) i talked with him and we had a play on words for along while. Ok i split with the person i was with and then that person showed great interest in getting to know me. He would stay on msn for hours and hours at a time for about 3-4wks he talked to me on msn messenger.

His demanor was cool, calm and he's very resevered, a nice man other wise, very knownlegable. Kinda had a cute nick for him from the way he made himself out to be, this Big strong Mastery type but as gentle as a huge bear LoL. Plus he had this way about him, i thought he was alittle different then the rest, nothing like a troll or a player but i was kinda fooled, and i usually give advice to those who ask how to spot a troll or at least someone who may not have interest in committed but at least be man enough to tell you that he/she may not want to be with you or to keep things open and not try to lead me to believe that, there maybe more.

Ok he started to have patches of time when he wasnt online, his excuse were buyable, he would say that his cable was out and the service men cut the cords(which is believable, it can happen).
anyway, i started to open up alittle more and started talking about my feelings and some personal issues that i was goign through...he would listen and he showed interest in wanting to get to know me more. ok about 2wks ago, he was off for a few days,,,, saying that his pride and joys...(His Horse) was sick, that his horse got spooked from a speeding race car, and he had to sit outside with his horses and take care of them...and i thought that was very sweet and caring of him. I never once thought he mightve been lying i know some ppl are really deicated to their animals and i never thought that i needed to question him. Because his interest in me and my well being was so great that i didnt think that persono was a player/mind fucker...
about two wks ago today, that person and i played and we stayed online for hours that day, played and talked most of my time while i was home before.

Ok that next day he wasnt online, day after that he wasnt online, day after that still no show online...i sent him messages asking about his horse (since i do listen and i care about everyone i speak with online)

So he never came back online, didnt send an email. we didnt exchange numbers, so i didnt call and i dont think i wouldve even if i did without permission to call.

So yesterday i found out that...he has collared a submissive *blushes like mad and be acturally alittle stung* yeah so he found him a submissive and i asked and found out that him and her were talking for alittle while, even around the time i was talking with him.
I know myself and i like ppl to be happy and i wouldve stepped to the side for someone else to be happy, i know how hard it is to find someone,espeically online! So i wouldve been woman enough to step away and not even taken it there with him. Plus if that person wouldve been up front about his feelings of speaking with two submissives at the sametime then i wouldve been able to make a sound decision of my own to either continue to talk with him or move on to someone else. Then if i decided to stay it would be on me if he choose the other female, then for me to find out by one of my friends LOL..

anyway..i had to get this off my chest, its hard thinking u are the only one and then it turns out that he had to be waiting for an answer from her. I did mention the last time that i was going to nursing school, so maybe that was the reason for such harst actions? i dont know but i do know he mind fucked me nicely and i fell for it LOL...

So thank you all for reading, whoever reads it...i assure you, zesty will try not to make that mistake again