chalsia

well here are some more random thoughts:

i have been lurking here .. spending some time in the chat room, getting to know some people. And i have a question or concern.
i suppose it is a submissive desire to feel that collar around his or her neck. So much so that it seems almost desperate.. so much so that some feel *left* out when they do not have this symbol of belonging wrapped around their neck. My question though is, does such collar have a Velcro fastener? Ok ok let me back up.
In my mind.. my delusional mind, i must say i suppose i thought a collar would symbolize the love and devotion and the protection of the Dominant. Sorta an outward symbol to that which is in the heart and mind and soul of the the one with the collar wrapped around the neck and the one who bestowed such collar. Because in the end, is a collar not much more than that? Is a collar not a sign that the submissive has surrendered herself to the Dominant and in fact that the Dominant has accepted the submissive, has accepted the responsibility of being the One. So if the collar only stays on say for a couple of weeks, what does that say about the submissive, or the Dominant in fact?
I guess i have thought and believed that a collar is so much more .. and would not come off once neck so easily. Always even dreamed of having such collar *welded* around my neck, or the key thrown away. Perhaps i'm naive, perhaps i'm innocent in such things, perhaps i'm simply a dreamer. I know i know, things change, people change.. people get married, divorce and why should not the same things apply to the bdsm community. Suppose i wanted more, expected more. A depth deeper then a marriage.. a devotion more than a simply fling.
Perhaps i thought we could grow and develop and when we are sure surrender to that which is meant to be, and then not give up but fight and endure and talk and communicate and somehow somehow fight will one once heart, mind and soul not to ever take that symbol off around the neck.. to keep it on.. to always feel collared to the one.. not with a collar around the neck.. but with a collar firmly around once heart.
Now the question is, should that be different online, or does it only apply in the real world. But even by posing this question, do i know make provisions here for it being less serious. I mean online we are all *real* people, those thoughts and actions are not created by robots, their are real people behind those words, we love, live, hurt and cry just like everyone else. I have the same emotions here as i do when i go to a munch or any other event, bdsm related or not. So should the actions not be the same?