believeinme

The craving that has been burning deep inside for months for the words to become reality is now so intense that I start to wonder if they will measure up. My fears of failure swell inside, the doubt of self worth bubble to the surface, the tribulation in my mind of not being able to be all that is expected. Time has been cruel to us.....yet has allowed us to bear our souls to one another behind the safety of a screen. Emotions have been spilled, desires and needs unravelled, love and anger expressed. Im scared......so scared of the unknown.....where I wished for time to hurry...I now yearn for it to slow again. I dont want to lose this wonderful life we have created with words...I panic that my nirvana will not be as you hoped it to be. Ive grown so much, battled and slayed many a demon, stripped my wants ,needs and desires to the bone for you.

The day is approaching fast. Forced silence between us allows my mind too much free time to ponder. Im so frightened...not used to being in this situation. Yet all I need is your voice...your re assurance...your control. Without it I crumble,....Fear...the little mind killer.....I need you....now.......without you I am lost....drifting.

This holiday of yours has been too long.....unexpected I know.....time we have both done. So now I wait...as I have done for the last x amount of months.....patiently wishing for the time you hold me in your arms, bruise my lips with your deep kiss, caress my skin, roughly take me for your understandable selfish need, direct me to do what youve missed for so long.....and then love me tenderly, softly, totally. Once the lust and need subsides, only then can we restore balance as to where we slot in to each others lives....me following your demands..you watching me grow ...into the best Daddys girl you could hope for.