I have some serious, serious bondage issues. The thing is, I'm a submissive and I'm REALLY into getting beaten, violated, emasculated, humiliated, etc. but I've come across a problem with being tied/bonded... It all started when I had a bad bondage-style experience I'm not gonna talk about. shortly after, I met my gf. She unfortunately is not a dom, but one day she did cuff me cause she knows im into this stuff.
she started sucking me and i started getting all shaky and disturbed and upset and finally i cummed into her mouth and she undid the cuffs... im kind of ashamed to admit it but i locked myself in the bathroom and cried a little for a few minutes... i didnt know what the fuck happened and i was like traumatized. Of course, I'm never gona make her do that to me again because she was totally weirded out by my reaction... but for future girlfriends, especially doms...
Is there any way to get over an issue like this? Any way to train yourself? I've been into this submissive shit forever and i refuse to give up on it, but i dont know what the fuck to do if this is gonna happen to me every time.