I'm still pretty new to being a sub but I love it very much. Last week my Master and I discovered a huge thing that would be potentially good for real life play but is bad for online play.

My subspace trigger is having an orgasm...

Mostly this isn't a problem because I can't give myself an orgasm. I just can't it won't happen without another party involved and I had my very first orgasm in May because I was watching someone masturbate and tried using my toy to match them. Basically, for me to even get into orgasming territory there has to be a connection mentally and physically. I need my imagination involved. After a while I start to anticipate what Master may do and will he do it now or later. And since hes my online Master I can reread his words and when NI do the action plays through my head over and over and it pulls reactions from me. I can't control my reaction at all. Its gotten to the point where I'm out in public and if I have a sexual thought cross my mind I sometimes ejaculate a little and I have to go have private time to calm myself down.

The reason for that is, for years reading was my escape from my problems and now I can read things and imagine them to the point where I can actually feel touches on my skin if I think hard enough. Its just something I trained myself to do and now its becoming a problem because of how easily I can go into subspace if my Master commands me to cum for him.

I've learned that when I can feel a "lag" in my vision, movements, and response times that I'm starting to slip into subspace. When I get that laggy feeling if I close my eyes I feel as if I'm sliding outside of myself or my body is tilting when in reality I'm not moving at all.

My Master has taught me that going there by myself is very very dangerous and I can totally understand that. But what I want to know is if any of you has any suggestions on how I can try not to slip into subspace when my Master tells me to cum or says something I really really like.

I just really want to get as much enjoyment out of being with my Master without having him worry if his words or actions will send me a place that he does not wish me to go. So if you can please tell me any of your suggestions.