I just want to give everyone my deepest thanks for your warm words (especially denu - you sure have a way with words ).

Here is a blog link, if anyone is interested http://www.bdsmlibrary.com/forums/blog.php?b=128

I like bdsm, I like technical stuff, lol, I love my Husband - but every now and then, I get scared. Not of Him, not of what we are doing - but the sheer vastness of my surrender, of how deeply symbiotic our relationship has become. It is frightening to realize you love someone so much, that if something happened to them, you could not live without them.

We are good now, , and that episode is behind us. I wish I could say that it will never happen again - I will try, but it probably will. What I do know is that He will be there to catch me if I fall. I am a lucky girl.