His little one
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Drifting through my dreams I see my bed occupied by two and even in my sleep I feel the jealousy rise, that knot in the pit of my stomach, seeing M with another woman who invites me into my own bed. Every detail of the moment is clear and consuming.
I have had dreams that he was with another woman before but I was never present. And I was always really pissed when I woke up. I guess I know it will be a reality at some point. In a really odd way, it’s starting to feel like something

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I try not to make it a constant struggle. I Want to submit, so I don’t think He should have to fight for it…yesterday morning I was a brat. I am supposed to ask for permission to wear underwear. Not a problem. Nice little reminder that I am His and I rather like it. Yea, I was feeling unnoticed and neglected so I didn’t ask just to see if He noticed. Naturally, with my infinite patience, I couldn’t wait until he noticed, and pointed it out. I got in trouble of course, but my being an ass actually

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Sometimes I wonder if I am quite as stable as I like to think lol. I think I have evened out a lot over the years, but I still have this annoying ability to go from being on cloud nine, to feeling like I'm crawling out of the pits.
M got home last night and had to go do stuff for someone today. I was rather bitter about it which brought our moving into question. As it would be set up now, the whole thing intricately involves other people. I hate having our lives/livelihood wrapped up around

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Talked to M this morning and we really will be moving this year. I'm really excited, but I'm also kinda freaking out. We have lived in our house for ten years and I have never lived more than 50 miles away from here. While I have had some bad things happen to me that I wouldn't wish on anyone, I guess I have still lived a really sheltered life. A move to another state is a huge change for us. I dunno, guess it feels kind of like edge play in that it is a bit scary, but incredibly appealing. I think

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After an incredibly intense night, I began my two days at home without M. Naturally, given my tendency to worry, doubt, and overanalyze just about everything, I started analyzing our night together. I logged in, started a thread, and browsed the forums. I ran across a thread started by a sub who wanted to know if she should tell her exclusive Master that she had sex with someone else. At first, I was awed that someone could even consider Not telling their Master. Then I realized, that many of her

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