TimberV

But, there are more issues that are starting to crop up. Let me give a little bit of background first.

I spent many years as a boy, in old-guard training. I loved my Papa very much. I lost him about 6 years ago after a surgery. The prescription pain-killer that he was on killed him.

After that time, I decided that I would never be another man's boy. I grew into the world of being a Dom and didn't look back. I have been very happy there.

After a period of time, I became uninvolved in the leather world. And, I was okay with that. I had no idea how much I would miss it.

So, I took my trip to LA to meet someone. And he reawakened the boy in me. That was something that I hadn't felt in a long time and I knew that it was right. A little scary, but it was the place I needed to be. And, I have to say that I don't think that anyone else could have ever done that.

Now, I am back home in Montana and I find myself craving a St. Andrew's Cross and a flogger, or a single-tail. Finish it off with a good cry and some aftercare. It's all a little bit confusing to me right now.