~ willow ~

i've pondered much these last few weeks. Not always logically and not always coherently. And not always respectfully…but punishment ensued so we’ll close the door on THAT tyvm, hehe.

Communication, the key to the success of any relationship, has proven to be not as simple as i thought. There are so many levels of communication and it's not always comfortable. Not only that, communication has to be paired with understanding. If nothing else, i've learnt it's best to err on the side of caution and risk repeating yourself to be sure understanding is there. Because when that communication breaks down, it can really hurt.

Old discussions often need to be revisited, new viewpoints aired and new experiences decompressed. i like to think of my relationship with Master as a living, breathing entity and as such needs to be fed...with commitment and devotion and nurtured with truth. My biggest question is how do we keep up, when this journey fires up so much in me? When there is so much to say it feels like i'm going to burst? When it feels all consuming and awakens every fibre in my body, mind and soul?

How do you reach that point where you feel safe to say whatever is on your mind? To relay all that you desire? To be open about all that you are? Without fear of hurting the other and therefore hurting yourself.

What i do know now, is that communication is a two way street. That not only must i be willing to share, i must prove i am willing to listen and accept what i hear.

Master and i have overcome our biggest challenge yet. And i love him more than ever.

i belong to you, my Master, and i always will. Your protection has sheltered me thus far, but trust me when i say, i'm stronger than you think.